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dude, i found this picture. and wtf??!!!

messy

my favorite song for now. lol

my mood is so not ok today.

messy

sunday

i want this phone so much. my friend at college used the same phone and its really beautiful. its only costs about RM350 to RM400. maybe i'll buy it using my own money. i'm enough using expensive phones like iPhone or blackberry or HP!! its good for show-off, but when its got ..... ok, enough about it :(

i love this picture so much. its cute. the photo and the model. :)

start college tomorrow evening. finally meet him again after long holiday. :)

the truth is, i didn't start either computer or English assignments yet. lol!

raya!!

today, i went to my friend's houses for raya! yay!! finally i met my ex-school mates. we've never see each other since last March.

thanks to Syafiqah and Wan for drives us here and there.

the first picture, i blurred my picture. because i didn't look so good that time. lol

there's so many picture on my phone. un-used phone (phone without sim-card). but the USB is broken, i can't transfer the pictures to my laptop.

random

1. The phone rings; who do you want it to be?
-boy

2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
-grocery store? no

3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
-both

4. Do you take compliments well?
-yes!

5. Do you play Sudoku?
-no

6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive?
-no way

7. Do you like to ride horses?
-yeah

8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
-no

9. What was your favorite game as a kid?
-something fun

10. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, would you go for it?
-yes

11. Have you lied to get out of a date?
-no

12. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
-yeah, why not

13. Do you like to pursue or be pursued?
-pursue

14. Use three words to describe yourself?
-helpful, cute, virgin

15. Do any songs make you cry?
-yes

16. Are you continuing your education?
-yes

17. Do you know how to shoot a gun?
-no :(

18. If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you grabbed?
-laptop

19. How often do you read books?
-when there's an examination

20. Do you think more about the past, present or future?
-future

21. What is your favorite children's book?
-none

22. What color are your eyes?
-dark brown

23. How tall are you?
-tall enough

24. Where is your dream house located?
-wherever. as long as it big

25. Do you have a secret fetish?
-no

26. Have you tried sushi?
-and i love it

27. Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth?
-no

28. When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?
-....

29. When was the last time you were at Church?
-no no no

30. Where was the furthest place you traveled today?
-beach

31. What was your favorite job?
-stewardess. lol

32. Do you like mustard?
-yes

33. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
-can i eat while i'm sleep?

34. Do you look like your mom or dad?
-neither

35. How long does it take you in the shower?
-lol. long

36. Can you do the splits?
-no

37. What movie do you want to see right now?
-the ugly truth

38. If you could fast forward your life, would you?
-lots thing to do

39. What did you do for New Year's?
-watching cracker

40. Do you think The Grudge was scary?
-yes?

41. Could you relate to a character in Mean Girls?
-dont know

42. Do you own a camera phone?
-yes

43. Do you have an "ex box" with pics and letters from past lovers?
-no

44. Was your mom a cheerleader?
-lol

45. What's the last letter of your middle name?
-A

46. Do you like your middle name?
-yes

47. How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
-8 to 12

48. Do you like care bears?
-no

49. What do you buy at the movies?
-drink

50. Do you know how to play poker?
-no

51. Do you wear your seatbelt?
-yes

52. What do you wear to sleep?
-short and siglet

53. Anything big ever happen in your hometown?
-yes

54. How many meals do you eat a day?
-everytime i want

55. Is your tongue pierced?
-no

56. Ever meet anyone you met on myspace?
-yes

57. Do you read myspace bulletins?
-yes

58. Do you like funny or serious people better?
funny in serious way and serious in funny way. you choose

59. Ever been to L.A.?
-wish to

60. Did you eat a cookie today?
-yes

61. Do you use cuss words in other languages?
-yes, english. lol

62. Do you steal or pay for your music downloads?
-bluetooth. lol

63. Do you hate chocolate?
-no

64. What do you and your parents fight about the most?
-me

65. Are you a gullible person?
-not really

66. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?
-no

67. If you could have any job what would it be?
-architect

68. Are you easy to get along with?
-yess?

69. What is your favorite time of day?
-night

the way you look tonight

this make me melt.

raya..

few pictures. its suck when your camera runs out of battery. and it getting sucker when raya is not so joyfull. so... just that.

ignore the way i sat. lol!!

birthday. not beauty queen.

its his birthday today. i knew him since we were seven years old. since that too, (confession) i liked him. until NOW!!!

almost 11 years. but we've never been a couple.

why?? ask him.

he never liked me, which sometimes bother me and sometimes not. i took it positive way.

he's the one who loss here because he didn't take me as his lover. lol

he has girlfriend. as i know. his gf... just ok. even for the first time i prayed so much so they didn't lasts. but now i'm ok with it.

he's not soooo good for me. ( ok, that's a lie )

he's sooooo good.

why or what make i liked him.?

just cause. do we need a reason to like or love someone. no.

and its just happened.

ask me to forget about him. i can't do it. it make forever.

even he is not my official boyfriend, he is my first love. i dreamed about him. day and night dream. mostly its a sweet dream. dreamed about marrying him, have kids, live together. everything.

back in high school, in morning, when he smiled, its make my day brighter.

when i didn't see him for a day, i felt lost.

i know, its risky to write this. maybe he will read this. but i dont care. its over between me and him.

maybe he's already forget about me. he has girlfriend. right?

he's moving on. and i should too.

what ever happened, i'll never forget about him. because he my first. trust me, i wont bother him anymore. its the end. ( i hope )

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.

raya oh raya

sempena ari raya ni an, mcm biase ah sume org nk mntk maap kan.
so scara automatik nye, ak nk ckp, aku maafkn korg sume.
hahah

so, scara automatik nye gak, korg kna la maaf kn aku kalau aku daa pernah terkecik kn ati korg ke pe ke an.

nnt pas raya, kita wat jahat lek, raya taun dpn mntk maaf blk.
so, tu je la kot. selamat ari raya, maaf zahir je. xde nk batin batin nye

shopping spree

today, i went shopping with my dad.

received duit raya from him. RM200.

i bought baju kurung, neck less, bracelet, and shawl.

after this maybe at 11pm or 12am.

we all going to do another shopping raya.

lol

i'm going back home tomorrow afternoon.

hope there's no traffic. if that happens, hope its not so bad.

10 days off from college is good!!!

bring them back

do i have to say more?

they touring. wtf??!!!

yay!

but its a US college tour.

happy for them who are going.

i'm here waiting for them patiently.

lol

raya oh raya

Raya is on Sunday! which is 3 days to go?

gonna celebrate it at Pahang this year.

should be fun, because.......

its Raya.

i think.

clothes for Raya, shoes, cosmetic ( lol ), and tudung. i want to shop!!

i want to wear tudung after this Raya. what you think about it?

cute huh? lol

going to miss someone this Raya. :)

what??

i'm happy today.

like yesterday.

lol

i guess you know why.

i was late today.

30 minutes late.

then i sat behind HIM.

*blush*

happy

today is a happy day.

here, happy is not just like fun or good.

this type of happy is like when your boyfriend ask you for a marriage.

or the pervert, its like you marrying Adam.lol

at class today,

archi class.

well, Ms.Fiza did taught us a little bit.

then she asked some students answered the questions that we other student asked.

well, it's my crush's turn to answered questions that we other student gave.

then suddenly Ms.Fiza asked me to asked him a question!!

*blush*

and when Ms.Fiza said my name out loud,

the whole class was like ooh-ahh me.

the whole class!!!

well, just that.

it makes me smile for the rest of my day.

even i'm in the train, i was smiling.

*crazy me*

:P

kuantan pahang

before and after

before edited and after edited, still ugly though. :(

new

*so immatured*

*this is trying to be cute*

*ponytail*

*shame*


this is ugly.lol

immatured or so cute?

my new haircut. lol. look so immatured. but cute. :P

small picture? yeah it is

i hate myself

my day started very smooth today. even have to chased the train earlier. but then, everything went so smooth.

after class, i helped my friend to finishing her engineering assignment. then i asked her if she want to follow me to Mid Valley Megamall. then she said yes

we have a great time together. dude, she spend RM100 today. and i've spend nothing.

because.....i've lost my RM50. :L

tomorrow i'm going to Kuantan, yay!! but i've lost my money, and i don't have money. *dunno what to say*

i hate myself.

loitering??

so, i'm still alive today. that's good. lol.

i thought i'll get scold by my English lecturer because i didn't submit my assignment. well, i know how to deal with it. so, the mood is good.

going home at 1pm. then my friend and i loitering around Kl Central about 20 minutes because we both miss the train at first. so instead of waiting like an idiot, we both take a walk.

funny that, everyday we both go KL Central, changed trains, chasing trains, stuck with loads of peoples, but we've never travel or explored KL Central. lol

found few good stuff. shoes for sure. it was so cute. so cute but then so expensive. lol

a shawls and bags are nice too. but i don't have any money that time.

after loitering, we've decided to go downstairs and waited the trains. as we arrived, my friend's train is arrived. so i waited for couples of minutes before my train arrives.

lucky i have coins in my pocket. i've called my best friend and wish her a very good happy birthday. i miss her so much. :)

going home from college in afternoon is ok i think. not so crowded i think. but its hot! when i'm going to get my license? dad?

beauty queen of only eighteen!!

babe, you will be loved one day. but one thing for sure. we are in love! :)



Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along, yeah
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

[in the background]
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

Yeah
[softly]
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Try so hard to say goodbye



*birthday present*

happy birthday sweetheart!!

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FIZA...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...

babe, you are so lucky to be 18 years old. now, you are not under aged anymore!. as your best friend, all i can say i always prayed for you.

thank you for be my best friend ever! you always been besides me in good times and bad times. i cant asked more from you.

hope our sweet relationship lasts long until forever. because i cant find anyone like you.

I LOVE YOU.

09/09/09

can this date means something to me?

well, when i was small, i dreamed that maybe this date i'll getting married or something. LOL.

but its not going to happens. :)

so far today, nothing much special happened to me.

so basically 09/09/09 is special, but not to much for me.

english ????

day started very chaotic. don't know how i'm late this morning but still can reached at college on time. :)

arrived at college, someone cheered me up. he is so cute!!! he make me smiled for the entire day, until now actually. well, technically, not him, but our friends did. our friends make jokes of us, because they all knew that i liked him. hurm.. what i should call him. should find a nick name for him. let me think about it.

today is engineering drawing's first test. glad i can do it. glad WE can do it. lol. so, now assignment for this week. Yay for me! i can finally rest.

i'm so tired today, waited for an hour for ktm. *dreaming* when i get a car, ........
lol

guys, wtf! my friends told me that i have to submit english homework on Tuesday. which is obviously yesterday. dude, i dint even start to do it yet! i thought we have to submit it tomorrow!. so, what now? should i come to class tomorrow or not. *scream*

must post this

DUDDEEEE!!!

i'm totally blur, sorry

cool sign huh??

my dad bought me new bed, new closet, and also new study's table (i guess).

i thought after the incident (f*ck that guy), my dad will not buy me anything because well, the first reason is money. of course, or i thought my dad would not trust me anymore. but then i was wrong.

he is still my father, and i'll be his daughter forever. so, the love is still on the air.

(what the hell i was talking about)

ok just ignore me.

i'm not here.

lalalala....

until now, the bed didn't arrived yet. whatthefishcake...

my room is empty, where i'm gonna sleep tonight?

this is dedicated to marcquelle

Full Name= Marcquelle Jermaine Ward

Birthday= 8th November 1983

Star Sign= Scorpio

Fave Color= Baby blue

Heroine= Mum

Philosophy on life is= Anything is possible if we really want it

if you want to know more about him visit this link

http://www.myspace.com/marcquellewardteam

Most recently fans will recognise Marcquelle from ITV1/CITV's 'Britannia High' where he played BB, he will soon be appearing in one of the longest running soaps 'Coronation Street' as Mitch. Also in September 2009 you will be able to tune into your radio and catch Marcquelle on Radio 4's radio drama Crave as Anton Trent. His Television career has spanned over several years with various projects; 2007 he was crowned BBC 1’s Dance X Champion thus winning the opportunity to support R ‘n’ B star Rihanna on tour with his other Dance X group members. Marcquelle has also toured in dance groups with numerous international stars such as Estelle, Corinne Bailey Rae, Geri Halliwell, Jamelia and Simon Webbe. 2005 Marcquelle became Rio Ferdinands white chalk finalist. 2004 he appeared in Trouble TV’s ‘Bump and Grind’. Also in 2004 - to the present day Marcquelle is a freestyle show presenter. 2003 Marcquelle became the Nike UK Basketball Freestyle Champion. His successful modelling career has seen him advertise many big brand campaigns such as Nike, L’Oreal, JD Sports & Automobile Association.

Britannia High is on air

BRITANNIA HIGH. I LOVE THAT SHOW.

it was from UK, my favorite place btw, too bad its only have 9 episodes. the itv's have to stop it due to low ratings.

cast:

Matthew J. Thomas

Micth Hewer

Marquelle Ward

Sapphire Elia

Georgina Hagen

Rana Roy

i have Matt's autograph. i told that before.

now, Britannia High re-run on tv2, 12.30am every Saturday. gosh, i love it.

Lucy, again, she send me all the Britannia High's songs. and she said when she find a job, she going to buy me the cd's and send it to me.

she is great. lucky me to be friend with her.

my friend, he found Britannia High's DVD, the show not the songs. damn, i want one. but i don't have any money.

*sigh*

fuck that guy!

4pm

i woke at 4pm today. wtf!!!!

confirm that i didn't gain any reward for today's fasting.

hehehhe

still, on my desk doing my assignments now ( i don't have desk actually) doing it on my bed. lol

keep thinking, why i put adam's picture on my every post. lol

why not, he's hot!

assignment!

still can't let myself to forget about yesterday's incident. don't want to talk about it.

the assignment's getting more and more.

have about 4 assignments and 2 tests waits for me next week.

and i didn't even start to do it. lol

i should or i'll failed in this semester.

thank you for all friends with helped me while i'm going through hard moments. especially, Ms.Baker, ty for listening. and strangers that help me yesterday. thank you so much. :P

and i love Maroon 5!!!

please dont hate me.

all i wanna say is, whoever responsible to take RM2000 from me, i'll curse him for 14 generation. and don't think that you gonna be safe after this. fuck you!!! i swear to God, you put me in this trouble, i'll make sure you faces the bigger problem. or you can just go from this planet. nobody ever care. and because of you, i have to deal this with my dad, and take the risk if he hate me. if that happens, you are not getting away from me or God.

after re-think, thank you God for putting me in this situation. its clearly shows that You love me more than anyone.

*sigh*

to dad,

i'm really sorry for what happened. i'll find RM2000 for you. or just take my scholarship money first. i want to pay for the phone. i'm careless. i didn't listen to you. i'm really really really sorry.

i love you dad, i know you will be upset with me, disappointed, and seem like you cant trust me anymore. i'm sorry. you can punish me however you want. i'll take it. but please don't hate me dad.

your daughter.xx

this day

remember this date

September 3rd, 2009.

the worst day of my life. EVER!!!!

dorian gray's booklet

lalallala....

one of my favorite thing in my bedroom.