happy slowly change moody

i have his picture! seriously dude. i text him, asking for permission to put his picture here.

he said

"no. i afraid someone will mad at me. you dont want put me into trouble right? so i think better not."

i asked him

"who? your girlfriend?"

he answered

"good that you know. i dont like any trouble"

then i replied

"ok.its okay. sorry for disturbing you"

he didnt reply after that.

*sound of glass breaking*

that's exactly the same how my heart right now.

but!!! i did captured his hand. here it is.

he's been punished because he was late again this morning.

the sentence is most likely like this

"this is my last promise. i'll never come late to class or else i'm gay"

LOL!!!

wtf? look at his handwriting...

hahhahaha

*sigh*

he has girlfriend

family

i'll just talk about my family.

see, they my family and obviously i have to love them. right?

but one big question.

does my mum love me?

and obviously you will say yes she is.

but mums, will not scold at you,

mums will not hit you.

they should be at least taught us how to be a better person.

once, she asked me,

as you live in this world, did someone teach you how to be polite, nice or whatsoever.

and i said,

no mum, you didnt teach me that. so it not surprised if i'm not like what you expect me to be.

yes, i know how is her condition. she not normal (less-fortunate people), she wheel-chaired, so due to her condition, it like we have to respect whatever she say or ask.

no mum, that is not thing done. we have work, we have thing to work it out, we have pressure.

dont burden us.

we helped you. then, as a return, can you help us back.

please, next time, at least think before you speak. dont just speak. think, at least once.

after all what you've done, we still love you.

why?

because you know who you are mum.

think about someone else's. please

plain view

dont like my blog. have to change it very soon.

because it so.....naked

Korea

my dad going to Korea next month!!! no!!!!!

no no no no nooooo

i'll be dead meat.

mum+me=not a good combination

my mum. she scold me again today. why? her own stupidity.

she knew it was her fault, then without feeling or what, she just scold me like i did the biggest mistake ever.!

then, i almost cry in front of my dad.

then she pretend like nothing happened! what??!!

it happened because a small little thing! very small thing.

*sigh*

she is my mum. whatever she did to me, i have to respect her. had to.

can she respect me?

she is my mum. whatever she did to me, i have to accept her. had to.

can she accept me?

she is my mum. whatever she did to me, i have to love her. had to.

can she love me?

seriously mum, chill.....

symphony

this video is cool

blooming

Date : October 21st, 2009

Day : Wednesday

Place : Studio A

Thing that happened:

my friend, he brought camera today. then my friend and I taking our photos like crazy. like it was the first time we had a camera in our hands. actually, it always like that.

then, my crush, he sat alone doing his drawings.

and that when the story began.

i walked toward him, and called his name. he looked, then SNAP!!!

bahahhaha

just that.

:)

Thing that also happened:

he finish his work first. (i hate that)

then he want to go home.

he passed through me because i sat at in front of the class.

then, i said to him.

"Z, send me home,"

he said

"but, you didn't finish your drawing yet"

*he smiled!!!*

i then said

"wait for me then"

then all the boys at behind (friends), make that oohh-ahhh sound.

then blushing. me of course.

see the point?

he's not hate me though.

not like he hate to look at me, he annoyed to me or he does not disgusted to me.

he still can talk to me.

my heart totally blooming right now.

hiatus

so busy lately. think so...

twin?

he is my cousin..

yes, he is cute. so so so cute.

when i saw him first today, i thought he was HIM!!! (my crush)
then i realized that he is my cousin.

everytime i met him, i was like, OMGosh, he is so cute!!.

wish he can be my boyfriend!! lol

he's 15. i'm 18. big different. but i like his brother tho. but he is the cutest.

my crush, actually look almost the same with my cousin.

that explain so much, why i fall in love with HIM at the first place.

they totally look the same. the height, the look, the eyes, the dress-up, the way they walk. the way they talk, the smile!

same.

seriously....

*sigh and blushing*

open house

my days lately felt terrible. why? something bother me.

oh yeah, this saturday (which is tomorrow), i'm doing open house. so anyone feel free to come (maybe). tomorrow, from 12pm to 3pm ONLY!!! location, taman sri serdang, serdang.

lots of assgmnts need to do.

my heart is broken

i'm not in love anymore :(

special words for him.

hope it not over between us.

i'm in love

i'm soooooo happy today. lol.

so so so sooooo happy.

just because i did actually talk to him. lol

arghhhh i'm in love!

i'm so in love.

:)

web-cam-whore

new*

back to basic

see that? today construction technology's class, we learned how to draw a straight line!

see that big X?

yeah, waste a papers and ink!

there's something really bother me, yes it a boy.

another thing is impostors. i hate that kind of people. but then, life is so cool without them.

trailer

special to all the Maroon 5 fan out there!
we have one good reason to excited about.
can't wait for it

SE F305

see my new phone.??

yeah, still uploading tho..

story of me about them

*what?*

*did you said MAROON 5?*

*yes you did*

*yeah. for sure,*

*they YUMMY*

*and GOOD*

*and AWESOME*

*because THEY ARE WHO THEY ARE*

*i'm in LOVE*


*haters BACK OFF*

*OOPPSSS*

the dream.

someone reminds me to update my blog. but the truth i had no idea what i'm supposed to write.

too busy doing research for assignments. i think.

poor my laptop, no rest at all. it been on since ever!!

poor me more.

this week and next week and week after is totally a killer tho....

i'm missing someone.

glad that i can meet him tomorrow

especially after i had a dream about him the other night

he become more special to me..

nicey nice

it was the best dream ever in my life. seriously, i cant forget the dream. hope not. it was the first time i had a dream about him, and it was so nice. too nice. it a good sign right? yeah it is. hope so

it was nice :) hehehe.

even, it's just a dream, but yeah, it's was so nice.

it's just nice!!!!

how many times i said it was nice or it's so nice?lol

dont care, because it is so nice!!!

the only thing that is not nice now is assignmentsssss.

loads of them.

yuck!

birthday 2

happy birthday james.

i've said it yesterday right?

heheh

well, James, happy birthday again..

may this year bring you so much joyful yet learn more about life. :)

keep banging that guitar please.

(for those who didnt know who James is, he is Maroon 5's lead guitar)

birthday bash

oh yeah...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JAMES!!

dedication to him sooner

killer

this week such a killer week.

so tired..

so much hw..

so much test..

tension!!

dont have time to update blog.

missing

today is so not great. friends at college, my friends, they..... idk what to say. they didn't act bad towards me, but they were like ignored me. i need to call my best friend which she is way far away to south. :) miss her.

you know what i miss the most? MAROON 5!!!

confession

i have confession. but i want to keep it as a secret. because its to risky to tell everyone. i'm scared if when i tell the confession, many people will hate me. i can only tell my bestfriend only. *sigh*

i'm really upset about what had happened. i wish i can do more about it. but its too late.